If i should die, think only this of me
Of how i always smiled at you,
mesmerized by your beauty
Of how i always tried to make you happy
despite the challenges that we faced.
But you never saw through that smile,
that deep inside i was hurting.
You were never able to see
that my heart was nothing
but an empty shell
And it was all because of you...
But i do not want you to feel guilty
for you did not know what you were doing.
You were caught up in the world
And its devious ways,
Nor do i want you to think that you are innocent
because trust me, you are far from that.
You made me string along behind you
like a lost fool
You made me feel like a sheep with no direction
But forget about that,
for i am now in a better place
I am happier than i ever was
or ever could be when i was around you.
And remember that you are not guilty,
nor are you innocent,
But floating somewhere in between.
© Nosipho Mtshali