Do Not Fall in Love With People Like Me - Justin van Vuuren

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Do NOT fall in love with people like me. I will take you to museums and parks and monuments and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible, and when I leave you will finally understand why STORMS are named after people.

-          Spicy Icy

 

 

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There are many types of monsters in this world, monsters who do not show themselves and cause trouble… monsters who abduct children. Monsters who devour dreams, monsters who suck blood and monsters who always tell lies. Lying monsters are a real nuisance… they are much more cunning than other monsters. They pose as humans even though they have no understanding of the human heart. They eat even though they’ve never experienced hunger. They study even though they have no interest in academics. They seek friendship even though they do not know how to love. If I were to ever encounter such a monster, I would likely be eaten by them, because in truth I am that monster.

-          Spicy Icy

 

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The very thing that distinguishes us both is that I wouldn’t hesitate to choose you in every lifetime. But you wouldn’t choose me in this one and although I gave you my flesh and bones. I know I cannot love you into loving me, so there you are overflowing with my love and here I am pleading foe a droplet of yours or whatever I could salvage but there must come a time where you recognize to grieve someone hurts a lot less than forcing them to be a part of you. And I know I should not beg for love but just once I wanted someone to be afraid of losing me.

-          Spicy Icy

Justin van Vuuren

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Grade 12

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I'm Still Standing ~ Mfezi Sibisi

 Despite your continuous effort to end me i'm as alive as can be , despite your over usage of my amenities and your depletion of my resources i am still active in my existence tending to those you injure in your devious process or attempt to dominate me .

I have made efforts to retaliate but you continuously defy me. The anguish you have caused amongst my residence cannot compare to the agony you will face if your defiance of my laws is a road you are not willing to cut off. Your animosity shall not go unpunished as you continuously ignore my mercenaries amongst you which was my last attempt for peace. Till your species is extinct i shall not me be at rest.

As the impulse to do the right thing is imbedded in every single one of you , yet you choose not only to ignore it but you do the exact opposite , i am far from disappointed i'm neck deep in rage. Mhh man-kind what irony, though i admit there are some decent souls amongst you , there simply aren't enough for the word kind to be situated adjacent to man.

I haven't much to say accept if you deem it fit to defy your co-creator i personally do not see the positivity in your existence .

[Unedited]

© Mfezi Sibisi

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Grade 10

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A Disappointed Mother ~ Mfezi Sibisi

 I've seen tons of organisms come and go but none like this species, i'm quite proud that my climate gave birth to such smart creatures or better yet provided the preferred sustenance for such a marvelous race of unified organisms.

Throughout the love i disperse amongst my organic children there are none i value more than humanity , allase humanity does not value me . I'm afraid i've let humanity suck on my nourishing teat of life for too long , "i've corrupted them"

I provided too much of a sanctuary for them gleaming with an array of resources fit for the gods (meaning gold and diamonds end product -"jewellery"),they've taken advantage . As the parent of this race i blame myself for their actions as i am the catalyst who favored them overall my children hoping they would bring peace among my continuously conflicted kids but now i've come to realise i was sorely mistaken , (sigh) i have a co-ordinated monster "who will eventually become the death of me.

[Unedited]

© Mfezi Sibisi

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Grade 10

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Poetry ~ Nkazimulo Mvemve

Poetry

sometimes it feels like my emotions get the best of me.😢
maybe I feel💓too much and think🤔 too little
that my heart♥️becomes my mind.🤕
it's not my intention to cross the line but...
when I love... I Love,💘and yet for the most part,
it feels like my heart has been breaking💔more than loving.💖

I hate repeating🔂my mistakes with recurring love.
it feels as if my heart's a character in a video-game🎮,
it dies and dies and dies again.
each time different and each time more painful💀
than the last.
yet still it will resurrect👻to carry-on playing🎮
even though it may never win🥇

even still... you'd think somewhere in between
I would have changed,
I would have learned from falling for someone.
It's like outer🌠space in my inner ear👂🏿,
all I hear are silent lips moving👄,
they're saying "it's ohk".
The hardest pain is falling,
until you hit the attachments
that make it hard to get over someone.

Silhouette

"She's so perfect, so humble."😍
I say in my mind🧠as it is the only thing that I thought every time I saw her.🌚

As to why I did not speak🗣about how I felt?
I do not know🤷🏿‍♂, with reasoning so parallel to rejection I hesitated in my attempts.😳
But in fact my motives were not that of a Flirtatious type😏
but one filled with Admiraton.
She was beauteous in every way.🌹

I have no recollection of why failed to acknowledge her presence before.🤔🤷🏿‍♂
At first she was just another person that drifted past me🚶🏽‍♀,
the second time, there was little emotion when I saw her from a distance👀🚶🏽‍♀.
Yet I don't know if the third time was the charm but I saw a different glow,
an Aura to put it more correctly.

And I now I can't stop thinking about her, a Silhouette of biblical proportion.
Creepish looks of profound awe, was all I was able to do.👀

When she sat next to me our conversations were brief personality exchanges,
family, and school matter.
I immediately felt ashamed because as a Dude
I should have been able to flirt with her.

Physical appearances may not have been of her standard I guess
but confidence has always been an opposing factor when it came to that.
Although in her case she gleamed purity with her every smile,
shunning away the best-looking Playboys,
giving the littlest attention to comedic attempts from the Best-boy
and me the guy who she probably thought was just male figured shadow.

My only attempt at reaching out to her is a poem she'll probably never read.
I'm sceptical as to whether my words will ever meet her eyes.
She was not like every other girl,
she was uniquely of her her own status, in my view
standing far higher than the rest,
 she wasn't the most popular but she peaked at beauty,
with no shame towards her ethnicity she wore her crown well.

In a so called Poet's attempt my only Flirtatious attempt is this
I offer it to every single girl in the world
the Silhouettes of perfection and beauty.



© Nkazimulo Mvemve

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Matriculant 2019
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Farewells ~ Zinhle Ndlovu

Farewells Never Existed Yet Goodbyes Are Persisted

I was thinking of true inspiration but then you came to mind. I have a few memories but i don't know where to start.

Do you remember the first day you looked me in the eye and told me i shouldn't hide my gift...well I'm remembering the little times we spent together and i just want to say :

"Farewells never existed yet goodbyes are still persisted"

We'll be so distant as if you were in pluto and i was in plant earth, yet i know destiny is not my enemy ever since i was told that everything happens for a reason. At first i feel my words were jailed but then you freed me.

This is not farewell, we'll stay well, please go out there and excell maybe we'll move together emotionally and the eyes may lose sight but the love will never be torn apart as farewells never existed.

A Mother's Love

"Never give up my child.
Do your best and don't forget to smile."

Sometimes we go wild but our parents are prepared to walk the mile. A mother is a woman, a woman is love and love is a mother of happiness. The guilt is in your heart and mind as soon as you realize that a mother's imagination of losing you is scary.

I utter truth and expose gratitude while my mom is my utmost atitude, for the words i speak travel continuously beyond glorious lands and I feel my mother's warm embrace as it never ends.

The guilt is remembering all the wrong I've done to make her sad and sometimes really mad...No words can express how i feel because she gives me love in a gesture of a simple day meal.

My mother's love is beyond the atmosphere she is a shining amour with a spear to destroy fear when it comes near. Her voices is a melody of motivation so meaningful that when she calls my name i truly realize that we are beautiful 'Zinhle'. Her words make more sense to me now than they did yesterday.

"Never give up my child.
Do your best and don't forget to smile."



© Zinhle Ndlovu

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Grade 12
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SILHOUETTE ~ Nkazimulo Mvemve

"She's so perfect, so humble."
I say in my mind as it is the only thing that I thought every time I saw her.

As to why I did not speak about how I felt?
I do not know, with reasoning so parallel to rejection I hesitated in my attempts.
But in fact my motives were not that of a Flirtatious type but one filled with Admiraton.
She was beauteous in every way.

I have no recollection of why failed to acknowledge her presence before.
At first she was just another person that drifted past me, the second time, there was little emotion when I saw her from a distance.
Yet I don't know if the third time was the charm but I saw a different glow, an Aura to put it more correctly.

And I now I can't stop thinking about her, a Silhouette of biblical proportion.
Creepish looks of profound awe, was all I was able to do.
When she sat next to me our conversations were brief personality exchanges, family, and school matter.
I immediately felt ashamed because as a Dude I should have been able to flirt with her.

Physical appearances may not have been of her standard I guess but, confidence has always been an opposing factor when it came to that.
Although in her case she gleamed purity with her every smile, shunning away the best-looking Playboys, giving the littlest attention to comedic attempts from the Best-boy and me the guy who she probably thought was just male figured shadow.

My only attempt at reaching out to her is a poem she'll probably never.
I'm sceptical as to whether my words will ever meet her eyes.
She was not like every other girl, she was uniquely of her her own status, in my veiw standing far higher than the rest, she wasn't the most popular but she peaked at beauty, with no shame towards her ethnicity she wore her crown well.

In a so called Poets attempt my only Flirtatious attempt is this I offer it to every single girl in the world the Silhouettes of perfection and beauty.



©  Nkazimulo Mvemve

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GRADE 12
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The Understanding ~ Nkazimulo Mvemve

I had an understanding with your parents...
I was so happy that they allowed me to date you.
I was relieved that the ball thats in-between us called mommy spoke to me and your dad...

The men - murderers of women - until they have a daughter...
Their own blood and flesh in their arms, he probably thought that your so beautiful you were his angel.
Keep your Halo high above your head and wear it well...
Well it fell a bit since a demon called nkazi entered your life a demon called a man - well technically he doesn't have his horns yet but he's still holds himself high for being him.
The evil single minded drive that causes them to even persue any Angels is what's hidden and what's precious to you.

Is it ever that lustful drive that ends up in disaster, mentally, socially and spiritually.
So shouldn't you fear that he doesn't think those things.
You saw him and feel in love with what he is, he got to know you and feel in love with who you are - you learned something from each other.
Precious information that you never knew and that nobody else ever told you...

A marriage of consciousness, yours and mine, you can't separate it not matter what you try...
The interlinking of past experiences and the revelation each other's mind...
A deep understanding that doesn't reveal what you may think, but it shows feelings, and we feel the same way.
You we feel separated but we aren't and I know that we never will be...

Our stars have been set in the universe, our love travels for miles and miles on end, and all creatures of unknown species see our love shine...
It's too bright.
This love burns...
It's hotter than anything you've ever experienced, it's dangerous even for us.
Fatal to our existence, a small fraction of collisions between us...
All that violence of clashing bodies, we chose not to move...
Abrasions visible to the eye and wounds deeper than the sea, I see we are stronger that what we thought we were.


We talked about separation today I didn't know that I mean so much to you - as I am your first everything - I mean many things to you and I have claimed your heart (was it a mistake) for my own and you have taken my mind and soul, I am no longer of God but of you.



© Nkazimulo Mvemve

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GRADE 12
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Their Words and My Tears ~ Nkazimulo Mvemve

It saddens me to hear those words come out of someone's mouth.
Even though they might have said it without knowing it's hurts just as much.
They say don't care about what other people think ,but how am I supposed to feel if that person has a massive impact on my life.
And as if I didn't hear properly I asked if she can repeat but it was as if she really meant it.
Saying it for the second time in the same manner , it hurt even more.

I thought about it then I cried and cried and cried and cried even more , but I was never heard and I never said anything I kept the pain to myself.
All of the pain in my life I've kept to myself ,I might have told a few best friends about my problems but I don't tell them all of them.
They say you should speak to someone when you want to do something like commit suicide, but I never told them about that either, I never told anyone

I've stopped the tears for now but the words will never cease.



©  Nkazimulo Mvemve

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Grade 11
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For What It is Worth ~ Nkazimulo Mvemve

I never really thought that it would come to this  we were so close that if I was apart from you I felt sick, but when I was near you felt alive.
I never really thought that I would catch feelings for you. When they said we would make a cute couple we laughed, but now I wish that it would come true.
I never really saw you like that at first because you were, " just a friend " but that just turned into a" best " and that best turned into love for you in a way that was unexpected.

It was as if someone pulled a switch in my head that controlled my affection for you. Now every time I see you my heart beats, my body heats up and it's like time slows down and everything around you becomes enchanted. Like you were living a fairly tale.
I guess that it's the way you talk and how I find it soothing, or the way you laugh which I find amusing or maybe your smile and your eyes how they blend together to make a picture of upmost beauty. Or maybe the way you look at me as if  your gazing into my soul. Looking right into my innermost thoughts and being.

BUT FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH I never really told you how feel, I was scared that I'd lose you and I guess I was right. I never meant what I said I was being an idiot mocking you of your beauty. I was being a fool. I'M SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT YOU. If I had the power I  change what said and compliment everything  I love about you

And for what it's worth to me please don't forget me even if you don't want anything to do with me. Losing you is like the end for me.



© Nkazimulo Mvemve

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Grade 11
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Reality vs Fiction~ Nkazimulo Mvemve

Do you ever wonder what it's like to live in a fictional world?
To go, beyond the gates of creativity and imagination and discover a place where anything is possible.
A place better that the harsh reality we live in, where you know that imagination is only found in fictional books or movies.Or where creativity only goes as far as drawing something because your bored in class.
Do you ever wonder why we need reality?
To keep us from changing the balance, messing with life, playing GOD and creating catastrophic mutations that set back the mind of man. Something that we are not used to.
Reality is real. It's there to differentiate the Real and the Imaginary. Reality is cruel and beautiful - it's unexpected.
REALITY ALWAYS EXCEEDS FICTION,
FICTION ALWAYS ESCAPES REALITY.
The Yin and Yang that circulate round and round in an endless motion. Creating balance and setting things back to normal. The two way mirror where you can see people from both ends.
REALITY VS FICTION - parallel in every way.
Fiction - we want to dream; dreams of money, happiness, love , the future, adoration and peace.
Reality - even though we live; nightmares of poverty, sadness, hate, past mistakes, loneliness and war.



© Nkazimulo Mvemve


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Grade 11
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How I Feel About Her ~ Nzima Mazibuko

When I first saw you, it was like I took a glimpse of heaven itself, your so beautiful that no language in the world can ever explain your beauty, your smile causes the gods of the galaxy to make the stars shine bright, your personality, is like an Angels soul intertwined with the most beautiful wonders of the earth, your heart, so peaceful, just like taking a stroll on the beachside, your body, so thick and beautifully curved, just like the pyramids, you leave people with wonder, of how this extraordinary structure was built. I consider you as fire, a very mysterious desire, but whether you are going to warm my heart or burn it down, I can never foresee it from the start, but believe me when I say,...."I love you " cause as I say this to you, I combine all of my unexplained feelings and bundle them up into 3 words, but all of this is just a poem,.... as I know that you know too, that true love is not determined by words, but by actions


© Nzima Mazibuko

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Grade 11
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Heartache ~ Vincent Moloi

I promised you that I would never let this happen never again but my weak body is giving in to temptation. Although I know it will end badly it always does just with tears running down your cheek. So how bout I save us the heart ache not because I don't believe in us just because I don't have anything left to offer even my heart is worthless now I've tried parting from it too many times and they all kicked it back with a lot of holes. I believe this is it heartless at the age of 16.

© Vincent Moloi

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Grade 11
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